December 2010
31 posts
Day 1.
1. What happened today? If it was the last day of your life, how satisfied would you be with your final hours?
-Today wasn’t the best day of my life but it wasn’t the worst. I woke up late, Justin and Mary came over to bake Mary’s cake for her birthday, that was fun. We then proceeded to go to Justins house for movie night, and watched a really terrible movie, Scott Pilgrim vs....
10.
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Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now.
1. I have the biggest crush on you but I don’t think you feel the same way back, I think you just want sex.
2. I fucking hate you and I hope you rot in hell, you’re a disgusting piece of shit.
3. I’m trying to reconnect with you but for some reason all my efforts go unnoticed, it gets frustrating...
Quick.
I’m just writing a little bit because I feel like going up to bed. Christmas was pretty good, I got spoiled, plane tickets, iPod touch, GPS, and like 600 dollars worth of other stuff. I was seriously spoiled and I’m so grateful for my mom because without her none of it would have happened. XD It’s like giving a speech or something.
I have cramps, I’ve been sleeping all...
Long time...
Haven’t written. My mind is full of things I want to write but I don’t know where to start or how to say it. It’s December 23rd and tomorrows Christmas Eve. In 2 years from now, the world may or may not be existing. I’ve been thinking a lot about 2012 and the outcome of it. Kenn brought up a good point, he said it may be the beginning of a new era, not the end of the world,...
I can’t look at pictures of me in the past 2 years because I miss who I was and hate who I am.
everything
happens for a reason right? everything happens for a reason. if theres one thing i’ve learned about life, its that it goes on.
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Still don’t know what’s wrong with my car, freaking out about it. I won’t know until tonight around 10. UGH. I’m supposed to hang out with Thomas tonight. I hope I do. I don’t feel right today. I’m waiting for my grandma to get dressed so I can take her shopping for Christmas. In her car…not mine. My poor fucking car. I want to take it to a mechanic today...
Freaked out.
I was driving home from Seans and my fucking car started making this scraping noise, like a piece of metal was on the road, but I looked under my car and it wasn’t. I’ve been reading online and so far it looks like only bad things could come out of this, but most importantly, money. I don’t have money! Well I do, on Saturday, but that’s it. It’s my Christmas money and...
Domestic.
Abuse is not something that I can tolerate. I’m listening to “Love The Way You Lie Part 2”, and I feel like it’s exactly what I went through, what we both went through. We were both abusive in our own way. I am so sorry.
This morning, you wake, a sunray hits your face smeared makeup as we lay in the wake of destruction hush baby, speak softly, tell me I’ll be sorry that...
Simple Man.
Shinedown’s cover of “Simple Man” is fucking fantastic, almost as good as the orginal. I feel so unaccomplished today, although I did end up going to the gym, so that’s good. I feel weird tonight, today in general. I think it’s my mind fucking with me again. Because, I was supposed to hang out with Sean but he got caught up with calls, and I think I just thought he...
:D
Oh boy, for the first time in my life, I feel sort of happy! I didn’t do anything I regretted, I have no regrets. For the first time in my whole fucking life. This is a wonderful feeling and I hope it never leaves. I haven’t felt like this in a long fucking time, and I miss it.
I went on a date today, different from yesterday. I know, I just rack them up ahaha. No but really, this was...
I'm a glass child.
OH BOY. I have so much to say I don’t even know where to start. I just sneezed ahaha. Anyway, I went on a date today. Justin and Mary came too, because it was far away and I didn’t want to go alone. First of all, this had to make the top 5 worst dates I’ve ever been on list. Total trainwreck.
First of all, he was cute but, his hair looked like he was graying, and the first thing...
No matter how many therapists you send me to, it’s never going to change the fact that you fucked up.
D:
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
The
The song of the day is most definitely “Somebodys Watchin’ Me” by Rockwell. It was on “Don’t Forget the Lyrics” and it kept popping up on my playlist. Anyway, my stomach is KILLING me. I think I have a tummy virus, cause for the past couple days I’ve felt like this. This is the worst tummy virus I have ever had, fo sho’.
Anyway, today was okay. I...
It's been a while.
I need to vent. Completely vent. I’m so frustrated, I don’t feel good. I’ve been feeling sick all day, like I was going to throw up. I haven’t yet but I’m getting pretty close, I think. I’m dizzy as I write this. Not to sound like a constant bitcher, but this really fucking sucks.
So a good friend of mine started to steal stuff, and it’s weird. It’s...
Oh boy.
My grandma is giving me this big lecture about how apprantly someone robbed some lady in ocean acres and how I always leave the door open. Whoops. Seriously though, if someone did come in the house, she would never know. She’s rediculously not aware of ANYTHING. One day I came up stairs at noon and scared the shit out of her hahaha. Anyway, I’m waiting for my mom, reading about R Pattz...
